Living with an addict isn’t easy. The facts are in on that! All you have to do is search the internet to find that most couples don’t survive addiction. It destroys families, and rips and tears all logic away.
The hardest part of all of this for me is that Grant lived his most of his life and our entire marriage without any idea what the root problem was with his health. He went in and out of rehab facilities over the years, and could never get sober.
Sadly, it wasn’t until after his death, and the autopsy report by Dr. Ann McKee at the Boston University, before it all started making sense to me.
Grant had Stage III CTE.
As I researched CTE symptoms, I realized Grant had every single one of them. I kept thinking about all the years of our marriage, and all the questions I’d had without answers. I had continued to believe he would come back to me. Now I understood why he couldn’t ever return. So much sadness, misunderstandings and grief…..
On July 15, 2012 Grant Feasel died and my world changed forever. I never planned on being married to anyone but him.
Grant had sacrificed himself. He died a shell of a man. He had been a huge offensive center in NFL for so many years. He slowly changed, like the sands of the seashore, until he wasn’t anything like the Renaissance man I had married in 1983. A man who loved poetry and played the guitar and who had options.
He was a 4.0 GPA Biology PreMed major. He was accepted into every Dental and Medical School in the state of Texas. He wanted a family, and he told me I was the love of his life. I loved Grant Feasel.
All our plans and dreams were taken away by a lifetime of addiction. Chronic Traumatic Encephalopathy took the man I loved away from me, and my life will never by the same.
I’m begging parents to look at the evidence of all high impact sports to the brain. Nothing is worth the pain and heartache that we went through. Grant lived a life of pain. He became an addict trying to stop the pain. The longer an athlete plays a head banging sport the more likely it is for them to have a lifetime of health issues. There is no scholarship or any amount of money that can replace a human life.
America’s favorite game actually kills people.
By: Cyndy Feasel